2021- I think we're good.

Current situation: How do I have two careers, write, eat healthy, dance, save money, and get out of my parent's house?

Okay I might have found the answer. Probably not. But I think I have arranged and over thought life choices enough to feel slightly more confident about the nearing future.

I want to be able to teach grades 7-9 language arts, go to a state graduate school, work part time in events/ food and beverage, save until I can buy a home, and also probably start my own wedding planning business at some point. I also want to write a book, continue to dance, and stay fit while maintaining a decent social life. I want to move out of state, travel, and be able to still capture the beauty of life without killing myself in the process.

A lot of 2020 has been me asking myself, "Am I being unreasonable?" Unreasonable with trying to do too much at once, unreasonable with my expectations, unreasonable with allotting time for specific goals.

A lot of 2020 has been me living with parents and my younger siblings, trying to fit myself back into a bubble that I already outgrew. Mom having her expectations and me having my own expectations. Two very different points of view.

As we move into 2021, I'm excited to get myself back on my feet. I'm excited to see what opportunities arise and where life will take me. But most important, I'm grateful that 2020 has taught me to cherish time with family and friends, take life slow, and to really take the time to figure out what I want to do with the next 4-5 years.

Goals for 2021: Save, Move out and back into a city, Start Applying to grad schools, Hopefully get some essays published, Find a teaching job, Find an events center/ restaurant I want to work. Try to see progress rather than perfection with everything.