Good evening! Do you ever wonder why fireflies light up the night sky? Me too. Let me know when you Google the answer. Since I've had writer's block for a while, I thought it was time to do some reflection on some goals. Goals for the rest of June and July: 1.) Apply to at least 5 jobs everyday 2.) Work out at least 3 times a week 3.) Document and track habits Goals 1 and 2 are straight forward. For Goal 3, I jumped on the bandwagon of Bullet Journaling. Usually, I'm a very

To the universe, I will become an event planner. I will create realities from ideas and help others bring their ideas into existence. I will continue to follow my passion and curiosity. I will continue to create a life I love. I will find happiness in the smallest of moments, connect the synchronicity of events, and have faith in you and myself. I will continue reading, writing, and growing. I will continue making things and being creative. I will continue moving forward. I w

In high school and college, I loved long coffee lines. I caught up on emails, social media posts, and the multiple group messages. I had a small window of opportunity to be productive before I went to next my class, after school activity, or work. However, I hated long lines at Cedar Point. I wanted to ride the roller coaster. NOW. Not wait 45 min- 90 min. It was hot. I didn't need to catch up on emails; the day was designed to be fun. Waiting is hard. There is uncertainty. Y

I have a confession. I wrote a blog post on Saturday; it was over bad days. How to handle them, exercises from books, and how to shift your mindset. My computer didn't save it. (Isn't that crazy? It's 2018 everything should be auto saved by now). My computer didn't fully connect to the WiFi. I didn't rewrite it. (Shame Jill- if you can't take your blog seriously when will anyone else?) Anyway, since then I felt I've had no idea what to write about. Until this afternoon. In th

"Feel the fear and do it anyway," Claudia Knepshield- my mother Fear. Anxiety. Doubt. Call it whatever word you'd like, but it's still there. Although fear can be a great compass to help us misstep bad and unfortunate situations, fear also holds us back. There are two ways to handle a situation that is out of your control: 1.) Stress out about it. Lose sleep. Eat less. Tell everyone about it. Make it a HUGE DRAMATIC story that gets in the way of living. Fear for the worst. Ta

Good morning! It's been a crazy week with graduation, putting in my two weeks at the fitness center, applying for more jobs, and my car is currently in the shop being fixed. I got to go home for Mother's Day after work, and it was great to see the family. Also Storm's wedding is approaching, and I'm getting excited! Reading Recently in the book, Designing Your Life by Bill Burnett and Dave Evans, both authors discuss the importance of building your inner compass to guide you

Hello! I've been lazy and busy. But I'm back, and I'm planning to be writing at least once a week. Some quick catch ups. I took a job at a fancy cycling center, and I helped plan their 2 year anniversary bash. I'm forcing myself to work out more, and I quit drinking by myself..woohoo progress. I currently have a life coach, and I have been working a lot hours between two jobs. I've traveled to DC, Chicago, and Miami. I dated a guy, and broke up with him. I went on a bad date

"Perception is reality." Gabrielle Bernstein Recently I have been listening to the audio book, "The Universe has your back" by Gabrielle Bernstein. She is a self help author and a spirit junkie that focuses on surrendering to the universe. In Jen Sincero's books (which I have read twice now) she discusses the vital importance of surrendering to the universe. When I had first read about the idea of surrendering it made me extremely uneasy. I like being in control of my life an

Why being 23 is awful: self doubt, not having a job that is your dream job, feeling too old for college bars and too young for expensive dinners, hangovers get worse, you lose lots of friends and can't find new ones, feeling trapped and confused, explaining over and over that you are changing your career, constantly worrying if you are wasting time, too much time to overthink, learning to be patient Why being 23 is amazing: the sense of accomplishment when paying bills on ti

How to get yourself out the rut that you have created. Start by keeping the promises you make to yourself- if you are planning to workout, file your taxes, or clean the kitchen actually make it a point to do so. Keeping promises to yourself and making small gains each day makes life bearable. Even if you can't see change at least you know that you accomplished something that day. Look for ways to up your game- your work game, your fitness game, your makeup game, etc. Invest i

Things I'm currently grateful for: Great food and great coworkers, chocolate, life coaches, new books to read, coffee, phone calls and emails, patience When taking direction in creating your life, it's hard not to compare yourself to others. It's also hard not to compare yourself to the excessive standards one sets up for oneself. This week and last week have been steps. Small steps moving forward. Emails. Phone calls. Conversations with strangers. I'm excited to have to ha

Aside from me being able to create a catchy post title, I am going to say this loud and clear: Stop the war with yourself . And all you perfectionists know exactly what I'm talking about. Clear examples: "91% on a test... I really should have studied harder; I'm an idiot." "I've gained 6lbs since the summer. I need to get back into the gym." "Why the hell can't I get anything right in my life?" "Why can't my face clear up?" "Why didn't my lesson plan go well? What's wrong wit

* Creative Non-fiction Essay Back in sixth grade, I wore orange eyeshadow and studied Geography in Social Studies. The hallways crowded, the lights too bright, filled with preteens with potential drama. We colored maps, calculated coordinates, and traced cities with our hands. We pretended to understand what Miss L was teaching. Most of us enjoyed the coloring part, some enjoyed the number part, none of us enjoyed the memorization part. *** The words Longitude and Latitude ar

List of things I'm currently grateful for: Apartment, car, books, crafting, writing, food, new ideas, fitness classes, good conversations with quality people Today I finished the last pages of You are a Badass at Making Money . Sincero's last chapters detail the ideas of faith vs fear, using a buddy system when creating new habits, and realizing that you may be unpopular for wanting more for yourself. Just as much as misery enjoys company, so does change and success. Most of

"The sky seems small if it is looked at the bottom of the well."- fortune cookie In many self books and motivational speakers on Youtube there is a discussion about raising your frequency. (There is even vibrational music dedicated to it). Raising your frequency does not only gives you a higher energy to operate on, it also gives you a positive perspective of the world. Raising your frequency is vital when trying to tackle new and big steps in your life that are outside one's

Creative nonfiction writing piece Step 1 : Be cheated on. Specifically by your high school sweetheart. Blame him for everything that follows. He is now the Antichrist. When you’re drunk, you scream when you hear his name. Step 2: Agonize and overanalyze your previous relationship. Lose sleep over it. Cry for approximately three months. At random times, bursts of irritability will occur. Confusion and loss of self-esteem are essential at this step. Step 3 : Become intrigued

As the snow flies outside, I am sitting on my sheet-less bed covered in blankets. My room is similar to my bed. Messy, unkempt, and completely me. One of the greatest benefits when living alone is no one gives a damn if you clean. However it's nice to have a clean place when coworkers want to see your place before going out at night. so ultimately it's a win-lose battle that never gets resolved. Since the new year is upon us, it's important to remember and appreciate obstac

In this blog post I discuss two videos both of the links are at the bottom of the page. In John Green's video, "How to become an Adult" he explains the importance of finding a mentor in your field. He also describes the first few years of Adulting as monotonousness and terrorizing. Both of these points resonate well with me because trying to find purpose in life and taking action towards career goals are difficult. Finding a knowledgeable other in the field you are passionate

I tend to have a pretty bad habit when I go out to the bar. I drink too much, make bad decisions, and then wonder why the hell I can't get life right. I also have a nasty habit of comparing myself to others which leads me to feel inadequate in almost everything. Last week at the bar, one of my coworkers had two drinks, called her finance to ensure that she was alright, and then went home. As I stood in the dark crowded room, I came across the realization that I drink too much

After Christmas break with the family, I realized that the only way I can become the person I want to become is to take bolder steps. In You are a Badass at Making Money, Sincero specifically speaks about hesitation and analyzation. On page 90 she writes, "As we embark here on busting you on your limiting beliefs, I want to caution you against you getting so wrapped up in processing your blocks that you don't take the action necessary to change your life." In addition to Sin